Please stop changing the statuses of my posts from Draft/Pending Review to Published. Nobody needs to see that. I am aware that it’s partly my fault due to my login habits, or lack thereof, and that the auto-logout seems to make your client act a bit funny, but there is no need to expose your readers to the liminal and maddening void that lies sleeping just beneath reality itself, one day to awaken and devour space and star and man. On that incomprehensible day, no amount of begging, no prostration, no benediction will preserve our sanity from the horror of even the merest stirrings of those vast and tenebrous things that exist beyond form, for whom our highest gods are beneath notice, but until then we should probably just chill and try not to think about it too much.
It’s a good thing nobody actually reads this, and that this is only a motivator to finish writing the things I start, because this way I don’t have to explain those duplicated paragraphs to anyone who saw them. I will, though: I am incredibly, psychotically picky about the wordings with which I say things, and commonly write paragraphs multiple times to see which one I like best. I firmly believe that with the proper wording, a reader could be moved to tears by a description of how to make pancakes. It’s probably an unrealistic standard to hold oneself to, but when you get right down to it, it’s not actually all that important to actually meet that standard at all. The thing is to keep improving toward it, to never think “okay, this is as good as I wanted to be, now I’ll just maintain.”
A thing is only an amalgamation of circumstance, and circumstance alway changes. Time always moves forward. The you that began to read this isn’t the you that just read this line, and it’ll be another you still that reads my last sentence. You are constantly being created and destroyed in every moment. Maintenance, then, as well as anything that appears to neither proceed or degrade, is just a trick of perception. It’s a pretty word for stagnation.
And you know, I don’t even like Lovecraft that much. Or rather I like his ideas far more than the way in which he wrote about them. Huh.